"fifty-eight"

'Oftentimes we wonder if the decisions we have made are sound; if we pushed and pulled rightly, or followed the yearnings of our hearts.  It's true that I feel I need you here.  Not just because I'm missing you, but because I'm missing myself.  (The hardest part about missing you, is no longer knowing you.)  On nights when the moon tugs so strongly on my heart; and I am left with a deep longing, and an empty space... I remember that I came here to learn to make it on my own; and if I learn to love myself, I'll never be alone.'

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orange county, california

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