premonitions in eights // (the delight in burning);

I hold much gratitude for these experiences.  All of them-- every moment of suffering, every iota of manipulation, every tear I shed for a lost cause-- and at the same time, I'm trying not to be completely hateful about the people and the places that brought me here-- because they too, had a part in it.  That is an important, albeit, difficult truth I must acknowledge to myself foremost before I proceed.     

And with this in mind, I'm attempting to put it behind me in the only way I know how.  Starting over again-- a new beginning entirely.  I am not afraid-- I was born to do this.  I'll delight to burn it all down; I'll rise once again from the ashes.
 
(Wish me luck).

12/28

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