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Why

"'What if nostalgia is not a fruitless dwelling on those irretrievable moments of the past, as we are taught, but an attempt by sweetness to reach you again?

What if nostalgia is really located in the present, like a scent or ambiance which is gathering around you, should you avail yourself to it.

As anyone who has been heartbroken knows, there comes a time when, long after loss has been well-lived with, a small melody of love always returns. And to your surprise, you may recognize the tone of that love as the very same love you believed you lost.

It’s then that you know your love never belonged to another. Your love was always your love. And if you let yourself be unguarded to it, nostalgia may find its way back into the generosity of your presence once again.'"

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"There are a lot of things that you don't know about a lot of people,
and that's the point."
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Dreaming of

Sans titre by Kristamas Klousch

Dreams of spiders signify carnal desires that may be hidden from the realm of your waking consciousness. Like the spider, if you are wise, you instictively and intuitively know something of what is coming your way-- will you eat or be eaten in this union? This level of your sensory and feeling perception is essential to survival. You must keep one of your fingers on the web and the other on the influence that connects to the world around you. A spider's web reveals that you are creatively weaving the threads of your destiny around a central ambition. The future you spin is imaginative, mystical, and beautiful.

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Dreaming

Dreaming of that face again.

“As a child I felt myself to be alone, and I am still, because I know things and must hint at things which others apparently know nothing of, and for the most part, do not want to know. Loneliness does not come from having no people about one, but from being unable to communicate the things that seem important to oneself, or from holding certain views which others find inadmissible.”
― C.G. Jung, Memories, Dreams, Reflections

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strawberry rose girl

' . . . her radiance scares me,
or perhaps I have caught her. '
sylvia plath

rose moon, june 2, 2015

The full moon during the budding and blossoming month of June is calling us to look inside ourselves, to see through the fog of illusion, to the soul of the matter within. This is a time for bringing your worldly dreams to fruition, but firstly you must evaluate if those dreams are faithful to those of your heart's desires. Do not be afraid to see yourself in the radiant light of who you really are. Look with untainted and unobscured eyes at the world around you. Evaluate where you are in your life, and where you'd like to ultimately go. Ask yourself where you would be happiest, and stay true to yourself. Remember if you listen to your heart, you can do no wrong.
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Lucky you are.

Give thanks everyday for all you have
&
for those who love you.
Remember
that there are those
who
have nothing.
Do not forget this.
Never
forget
how
Lucky
you
are.
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Resurrection from An Exorcism by Penny Slinger, 1977
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"The last refuge of the insomniac is a sense of superiority to the sleeping world."
-- Leonard Cohen
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"I buried my face in the pillow she slept on.
It smelled like all the good things that ever happened to me."

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“There are only two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle.”

― Albert Einstein
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m i r a c l e

mir·a·cle

ˈmirək(ə)l/

noun

1) a surprising and welcome occurrence that is not explicable by natural or scientific laws and is therefore considered to be the work of a divine agency.

"the miracle of rising from the grave"

synonyms: wonder, marvel, sensation, phenomenon, mystery

2) a highly improbable or extraordinary event, development, or accomplishment that brings very welcome consequences.

"her recovery was a blessed miracle"

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" when you're dreaming,

you're alive.
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Think

Think creatively even if you are not physically creating.
Embrace your uniqueness; be the first and only you
there is.
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spell

"Did you know that your gloomy mood
starts thundershowers on the other side of the country?!"

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take me home

after dinner i had ice cream
i fell asleep and watched t.v.
i woke up in my mother's arms
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Star girl

My mind is free, my heart is free,
my body is free, my life is my own:
On this night of all nights
At this place of all places
At this time of all times
I stand at the crossroad of worlds
I stand before the Goddess
I stand beneath the sacred stars
Lifting the veil of stellar mysteries
May the Shining Ones protect and guide me
Blessed be the stars, blessed be my dreams.
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"Unspoken desirious feelings to flee,
to never be heard from again."
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'God sent me an angel today.'

Sometimes no matter how hard I try (or even when I don't try at all), I fall into this same pattern of thought-- of longing and missing and broken feelings.

Nothing has been a better friend to me than my own solitude; I crave her company when the rest of the world becomes too much to bear... When my thoughts form burdens of their own.

So I stand at the edge of the sea, watching the tide ebb and flow at my feet... Longing to become as liquid as the salt of my tears.

I wish for the best.
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Can you imagine ?

"Can you imagine not having a body?"

I am humbly grateful for moments when, regardless of feeling aimless or anxious or unsure of myself, I will perceive something so beautiful and remarkable that I am immediately pulled back to the present place and time, and it is clear to me that I am exactly where I am supposed to be. This scene captures one of those precise moments. I got lost in the desert and found myself.

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Look deep into nature,

Look deep into nature, and you will understand yourself better.

Riley Wilderness Reserves, Orange County, CA
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I awake to the sound of the wind stirring the chimes outside my window.

Angel Wings by Charles Swedlund, 1966

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wish

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lovespell

Upon asking for happiness and a beautiful life, ask not just for you, but for everyone.
Upon asking for something bigger and more brilliant, ask not just for you, but for everyone.
Upon asking for health and abundance for yourself, ask for it to be blessed unto everyone.
Can you imagine what would happen if the entirety of the universe wished these things for you?

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Are we phantom

'Shall we pitch ourselves into the ocean, shall we hurl ourselves into the rampart? Shall we sink our teeth into the rocks, the waves, the shadow, the rose? Shall we costume ourselves in ruins and wrap this lump of sand in our gala frocks? Will you slip your satin slipper over the sand's foot? Do you think the phantoms taking up residence behind this rampart, the phantoms we await, will attend? Are we phantom enough?'
-- "Surrealist Phantoms"

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remember

Please remember that although you have nothing but gratitude in your heart,
you are not obligated to smile or feel any such way because of it.
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deceptive skin.

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"I dreamed of myself becoming so beautiful
that people would turn to look at me when I passed."
-- Marilyn Monroe

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love the moon

Love the moon not only when it is full and bright,
and do the same for the ones you love.

mixedmedia oreo moons, 2015
San Clemente, CA
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New Moon Wishes: Love with the patience of mountains; I deserve happiness.

The Dark Moon in Taurus on May 17-18 brings special awareness to your physical self. Attune your energies to that of your body and the earth. Take time during this dark moon phase to connect with your earthly senses (sound, taste, scent, sight, and touch). Turn off the outside world if need be while you focus in to your own personal needs and desires. Seclusion is key. If you are feeling ungrounded, you may be spending too much time in the past and or future. It is very easy to become distracted with thoughts not immediate to now and forget about the needs of your physical body and soul. Focus on staying within the present moment: 'love with the patience of mountains; I deserve happiness.' A beneficial way to combat obsessive thinking is to compose a list of your new moon dreams and aspirations... Reaffirm your goals in love, home, and prosperity. This is a wonderful moon for abundance and creativity. Exercise your natural gifts and talents to nourish the world within yourself as you manifest the universe without.
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song of myself

' I am the poet of the body,
and I am the poet of the soul.
The pleasures of heaven are with me,
and the pains of
hell are with me,
the first I graft and increase upon
myself-- the latter I
translate into a new tongue. '
-- Walt Whitman, Song of Myself, from Leaves of Grass
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seek

Seek what disturbs you,
be brave and cry
if need be...
You must learn from this
or be forced to go
through it again
and again

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