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Although

Although saying goodbye for now
is sad and wearisome;
it is a beautiful new beginning
around the corner,
awaiting your arrival.

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'All Hallow's Eve'

I haunt myself
from within,
like an old house.


Jeffrey Thomas Photography

featuring Miss Leanna Banana 
in Salem Witch Village, Massachusetts

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Moon of Rebirth

Full Moon (and yet another) Supermoon in Taurus on October 27 reminds you to ground yourself to Mother Earth and with the things you truly love.  

 

Let the moon illuminate your soul and shine light upon anything that is necessary for you to let go of-- anything that is holding you back from progressing and becoming the brightest and most brilliant YOU that you can be.  When you choose to allow any frivolous matters to fade in the light, what will remain are the things that are the most dear to you...  Clean out the closet of your mind, and you will find the hidden treasure that was there all along.  

 

Utilize your inner wisdom to decide how you can best use these unexpressed aspects of yourself to metamorphose for the better.  Now is the time to live your dreams as you allow the universe to transform you from the inside out.  

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rubatosis

rubatosis

n. the unsettling awareness of your own heartbeat, whose tenuous muscular throbbing feels less like a metronome than a nervous ditty your heart is tapping to itself, the kind that people compulsively hum or sing while walking in complete darkness, as if to casually remind the outside world, I’m here, I’m here, I’m here.

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"...Because you've touched her perfect body with your mind."

Suzanne takes you down 
to her place near the river,
you can hear the boats go by
you can stay the night beside her.
And you know that she's half crazy 
but that's why you want to be there...
And you want to travel with her, 
you want to travel blind
and you know that she can trust you
because you've touched her perfect body
with your mind.
--Leonard Cohen, 'Suzanne'

Capture by Keith-Alan DeFranca
featuring Leanna Banana as Suzanne

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The water looks like tears so you'll cry when you see it.

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Your
future
self
is
watching
you
right
now
through
memories

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"alonesomes"

"She said: 'I'll throw myself away, they're just photos after all.'

I can't make you hang around.  I can't wash you off my skin.

Outside the frame, is what we're leaving out; you won't remember anyway."

"I can go with the flow, but don't say it doesn't matter anymore."

 

-Josh Homme, Queens of the Stone Age: 'Go with the Flow'

photo

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change is coming

My shadow's
Shedding skin and
I've been picking
Scabs again
I'm down
Digging through
My old muscles
Looking for a clue
 
I've been crawling on my belly
Clearing out what could've been
I've been wallowing in my own confused
And insecure delusions
For a piece to cross me over
Or a word to guide me in
I wanna feel the changes coming down
I wanna know what I've been hiding in
 
My shadow..My shadow
Change is coming through my shadow
My shadow's shedding skin
I've been picking
My scabs again
 
I've been crawling on my belly
Clearing out what could've been
I've been wallowing in my own chaotic
And insecure delusions
 
I wanna feel the change consume me,
Feel the outside turning in
I wanna feel the metamorphosis and
Cleansing I've endured within
 
My shadow
Change is coming
Now is my time
Listen to my muscle memory
Contemplate what I've been clinging to
Forty six and two ahead of me
 
I choose to live and to
Grow, take and give and to
Move, learn and love and to
Cry, kill and die and to
Be paranoid and to
Lie, hate and fear and to
Do what it takes to move through
 
I choose to live and to
Lie, kill and give and to
Die, learn and love and to
Do what it takes to step through
 
See my shadow changing,
Stretching up and over me
Soften this old armor
Hoping I can clear the way
By stepping through my shadow,
Coming out the other side
Step into the shadow
Forty six and two are just ahead of me

 

icarus girl

Once you let people know anything about what you think, you're dead.  Then they'll be jumping about in your mind, taking things out, holding them up to the light and killing them, because thoughts are supposed to stay and grow in quiet, dark places, like butterflies in cocoons.” 

― Helen Oyeyemi, The Icarus Girl

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Yesterday

I dreamt I gave my soul away.

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"Deep in the human unconscious
is a pervasive need for a logical universe
that makes sense.
But the real universe is
always
one step beyond logic."

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Courage

ˈkərij/

noun

1)  the ability to do something that frightens one.

"she called on all her courage to face her demons"

2)  strength in the face of pain or grief.

"she fought her illness with great courage"

synonyms: bravery, courageousness, valor, fearlessness, intrepidity, nerve,
daring, audacity, boldness, grit, true grit, hardihood, heroism, gallantry;

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Presence

When I walk, I walk with you.
Where I go, you're with me always.

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Les poètes maudits.

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the aurora lights

"Do you have stars 
in your mouth?"
she asks,
and I laugh.

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of sapphire haze

'we sail through endless skies
stars shine like eyes
the black night sighs
the moon in silver trees
falls down in tears

light of the night
the earth a purple blaze
of sapphire haze
in orbit always
while down below the trees
bathed in cool breeze
silver starlight breaks down the night
and so we pass on by the crimson eye
of great god mars
as we travel the universe'

photo capture by darling David Dawson

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“Thus you may understand that love alone

is the true seed of every merit in you,

and of all acts for which you must atone.”

Dante Alighieri - Purgatorio

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'I know you are scared.  Who could blame you?
Love is a hurricane wrapped inside a chrysalis...
And you are a girl walking into the storm.'

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Glimpse;

/ɡlim(p)s/

 

noun: glimpse; plural noun: glimpses

 

1.  a momentary partial view or perception.

 

"she caught a glimpse of the ocean"

 

 

2.  shine or appear faintly or intermittently.

 

"fireflies glimpsing in the dark"

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"the third angel"

She said, "Sometimes I think people's hearts are like deep wells. Nobody knows what's at the bottom... All you can do is imagine by what comes floating to the surface every once in a while."

-- Haruki Murakami from Blind Willow, Sleeping Woman

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