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"You know it’s lovely to be alone once in a while. The winds will be my friends.
They’ll wail and sigh and croon around my tower …"

- L. M. Montgomery, Anne of Windy Poplars



"We're going in the right direction"



You are just a dreamer and I am just a dream.


The only people for me are the mad ones.

"The only people for me are the mad ones... The ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn."
-- Jack Kerouac, On The Road

Capture by Nicole Cartolano
with Leanna Banana
(April Fools)



we could be together
if you want.

i do want

i do want

i do want


"Right there and then; that strange red afternoon."

"I wasn't scared; I was just somebody else, some stranger, and my whole life was a haunted life, the life of a ghost. I was halfway across America, at the dividing line between the East of my youth and the West of my future, and maybe that's why it happened right there and then, that strange red afternoon."
-- Jack Kerouac, On The Road

Capture by Nicole Cartolano
with Miss Leanna Banana
in sunny San Clemente, California



sit still with your heart
and listen to what it says
tune into the song


(happy ostara)

"One day I was living silently in a personal hell, without anyone to tell what I felt, without even knowing that the feelings I had were possible to have; and then one day I was not living like that at all. I had begun to see the past like this: there is a line; you can draw it yourself, or sometimes it gets drawn for you; either way, there it is, your past, a collection of people you used to be and things you used to do. Your past is the person you no longer are, the situations you are no longer in."

- Jamaica Kincaid



Memory is not an instrument for exploring the past but its theatre.
It is the medium of past experience, as the ground is the medium in which dead cities lie interred.


Walter Benjamin-- Excavation and Memory, 1932



Only speak aloud
words you wish
to steep your soul in.








the state or quality of being transient; lasting for a short time; temporary; ephemeral; not lasting, not enduring; impermanent.


Etymology: from Latin transiēns - going over, from transīre - to pass over.


(artwork by Chie Yoshii)


Full Moon Lunar Eclipse, March 23, 2016: Settling the Storm Within

The Full Storm Moon in Taurus during the early morning of March 23 (complemented by a partial lunar eclipse only minutes before) encourages us to look within ourselves and heal any emotional tumult that may be weathering us... Both past and present.  

We have all been experiencing much inconsistency in moods and temperament, and rightfully so--  This is a time of drastic change which will ultimately lead to the healing of old wounds... If we have the patience and perseverance to delve deep into our conscious and subconscious tempests.  The reliving of former sufferings at this time is only to strengthen us.  If we are able to be honest with ourselves and truly examine where we are weak and troubled... Negating denial, avoidance of reality, playing the victim, deception of self, (and so forth).  

If we practice gratitude and self-reflection methods everyday-- every moment it is necessary-- Paying careful attention to avoid regressing into self-destructive behaviors... We will truly be able to make a worthwhile transformation and finally set calm to our storms.  



i don't feel it
i don't feel it anymore
the city drowns itself
heard the sirens from the shore
i won't suffer this
i won't suffer this for you
fields of orchids burn
and left here standing, frozen through
your star
through the scars
through the scars
i'll find your light again
it's cheap as apathy
the future atrophies
the more i dream
still i crawl inside your grave
for those lost november days
your star
through the scars
through the scars
i'll find your light again


fly on, little wing

leave the past behind you.  

"Dreams of flying signifies a move towards independence; leaving home or friends; success.
Also leaving things behind, rising above, or finding a way of escaping the difficulties of a former life.  

It is a way we move beyond the limitations of any one locality.  It is the power of the mind to move along and learn from or experience these many states of being.  It offers a much wider or inclusive view of where you are, or where you are going, in life."   

(artwork by  Miroslav Huptych)



"I just had the most wonderful dream"


(happy anniversary)

"Sometimes when I look at you I am moved to tears,
simply because I believe that you have loved me for my own sake,
and for no other reason."

capture by bt borchard
with leanna banana



"At the back of the neck


the old skin splits.


The snake shivers


but does not hesitate.


He inches forward.


He begins to bleed through


like satin."

—Mary Oliver, Rain



today i am happy for

the smell before rain;

the way it glistens our faces.

alone time.

finding something perfect i've 

been searching for a long time.

and knowing of this,




When something is manifested to you in the center of a circle, it may represent contact or awareness of your core self and spirit.  
Magic and teaching can occur in the circle of your dreams.  
Never fear.



for the sun to disappear.


"the gift of your vessel

is a message to me



"He had no place he could stay in without getting tired of it."
Jack KerouacOn the Road

(inhales deeply)

"When I drew open the window's blouse,
she bared all. 
Not a shadow covered, 
her whole being. 
I inhaled deeply...
--icon brown poetry


: :

"will i die?"

i tell her.

'every time.'


Try to be happy, darling.

"'Try to be happy, darling. You have so many gifts, if only you have eyes to see them. I know that your heart has been broken, but you have also been so blessed. Remember you are loved, beyond reason or measure. And smile for me if you can, my love, my brave little flower.'"

anna demarco photography
via insomniadiary


m e s s a g e s

How you treat the weak is your true nature.


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